AWOL

I find it funny (funny ironic not funny haha) that I mostly post when I think life is hard! I think it's the way I release when I feel lost. So I guess it's a good sign that I haven't posted in a while, yeah?

Right now, life is good. It's far from perfect. We are still very unsure of a lot of things. But I feel very blessed that my father in heaven has given me a great measure of peace in the situations in my life. For so long I felt so lost but I feel his guiding hand in my life again and I have for a while now.

The biggest thing that has been re-affirmed to me, is my relationship with Ross. We have grown so close over the last few years. We were close anyway, but this is a closeness that I can't describe. I am so in love with this man. He makes me so happy. And also our kids. I am in awe of them. I want to be a better person for all of my guys. They deserve someone great. Not perfect but still great.

I am thankful that I am here, that I am present in my own life. 

"It's in every one of us
I just rememberedIt's like I've been sleeping for yearsI'm not awake as I can beBut my seeing's betterI can see through the tears 
I've been realizing thatI bought this ticketAnd watching only half of the showBut there's scenery and lightsAnd a cast of thousandsWho all know what I knowAnd it's good that it's so 
It's in every one of us to be wiseFind your heartAnd open up both your eyesWe can all know every thingWithout ever knowing why
It's in every one of us by and by"

-David Pomeranz